Perpetually In His Care

Yesterday, my devotional started off like this:

"I AM PERPETULLY WITH YOU, taking care of you. That is the most important fact of your existence. I am not limited by time or space; My Presence with you is a forever-promise. You need not fear the future, for I am already there ... Your future is in My hands; I release it to you day by day, moment by moment. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow." What a reminder to wake up to!!! He is "perpetually" with me! What an uplifting and comforting thought. I admit, I have succumbed to the feelings of "aloneness" and "does anyone even remember I exist outside my family?" Yes, I am a missionary's wife but I am also human. Just because I am a "missionary's wife" does not make me more spiritual although it probably should. My daily life consists of taking care of my husband and children, homeschooling the children, and being the secretary for my missionary husband. Many times I have thought, "Shouldn't I be out sowing the seed and reaping the harvest?" It seems when I go through these selfish times that God reminds me that my mission field for now is in my home. I, along with my husband, am training my children to go out into the world. I have five little lives in which I can have a huge impact. I can't do this alone. I can't have selfish times. I must remember my Creator and Saviour and allow Him to have full control of my life every day. This is difficult for me many times. I have to remind myself every day that God is in control of my life and I am doing what He wants me to do, where He wants me to do it. No, I may not have many of the comforts that I had in the U.S. or in Mexico, but He has given me different things to meet my needs - and some new comforts! I just need to reach out to Him more and allow Him to fulfill my life and my joy. I need to rest in the promise I have that He is PERPETUALLY with me and I need to let go and let Him lead me. My future is revealed to me daily as I follow Him. My goal: strive to PERPETUALLY follow as He PERPETUALLY leads. I can't be distracted by what is to come tomorrow, next month, or next year. Every day that God gives me is a gift in which I should use to honor and glorify Him. How can I do that if I am fretting about the future and feeling sorry for myself? I must spend my energy living in the will of God for my life for that day. God wants us to live each day to it's fullest in His will. Only He knows what tomorrow will bring and only He can prepare me for it.